Self Image. I am convinced that every woman struggles with it. Some of us struggle more, or longer, or in different ways. But at the end of the day I'm sure we all have something we would like to change or improve about ourselves. My struggle started at about age 15. I have never been considered morbidly obese, just 20-30 pounds overweight. I have lost and found those 20-30 pounds more times than I like to admit. And as the years go by I find it's becoming difficult to lose and keep the weight off. At 28, I have a pretty active lifestyle. I am married to a wonderful man, I have a 19 month old son, and I work with some of the best people in the world at my church. Even though I enjoy my life, I want more! I want to go to the beach and feel comfortable with myself. I want to buy clothes that look flattering and not just try to find what will fit without showing my muffin top too much. I want to run a 5k and a half marathon one day. But for now, I will start with step one, which brings me to my first post...
The Scale. It can be your best friend or your worst nightmare. Today it was a horror movie. I stepped on...169.8! Now with the exception of being pregnant, which I gained 50+ pounds, I am currently at the heaviest I have ever been. I don't want to focus so much on a number, but I would like to have a goal to work towards. I am short, 5'1", so a healthy weight for me is around 130-135. I do not care to be skinny, I want to be healthy and feel good about myself. So here's to never seeing 169 again.
I have tried every diet pill or program known to man. Sure it works initially, but I have never been able to keep the weight off. That's because it's not only about losing the weight, it's about getting healthy. If I focusing on getting healthy, I am convinced that the weight will come off eventually. I am starting something I have never done before. I am trying to cut out meat. I will still include fish in my diet, but beef and chicken are out. I am hoping that I can last, I love meat, so I know this will be very difficult. I am beginning my journey with a juice fast. I have watched several documentaries about juicing and I have tried it before and loved it. It is a challenge because there is a lot of time that goes into preparing the fruits and vegetable, juicing them and then cleaning everything up. I have decided that I will juice a large amount only once a day to cut down on all the work. I will also go to the juice bar a couple of times a week.
This morning I made 64 ounces of juice which will last me one day. Surprisingly I like the taste of the juice. It is very refreshing and clean tasting. I feel good after I drink it. My goal right now is to juice for 7 days, then incorporate one meal a day in after that. I really hope that I can keep this going. It will be a challenge mentally more than anything. I have to wrap my mind around the fact that fried foods and sugar are killing my body. It occured to me a couple of weeks ago that I never see old obese people walking around. When was the last time you saw someone that was obese and in their 70s? Never. I want to live a long life, I want to see my grandchildren. So I have no choice, I can't wait anymore, the first step to the rest of my life is now.
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